Once Upon a Time at ZNUEL

Chapter Two

Life went on as it used to do: everyday I went to study in the library, breaking only for meals and it was not until ten o’clock at night that I went back to my apartment. Looking at the empty room, I lay down on bed alone, so disturbed by the noise made by a student couple next door that my heart begin to palpitate fast. Normally I slept quite little, and the situation was made even worse by the pressure, loneliness and the noise from the next door. Sometimes I would be induced masturbate by that noise from the next door but afterwards I felt even more lonely and emptier. Sometimes a lonely soul was more intolerable than being alone, and a solitary body along with a lonely soul was bound to cause something terrible happen. It was at that moment that Miss Xia came to my mind. Though she was not my type, something was certain to happen, and it could be inferred from the note that in her eyes I was not too bad a guy, and maybe she had developed a good opinion of me. That was the precondition for me to forge ahead our relationship.

On one lonely late night I sent her a message after I finished the masturbation:

“Just now I did the masturbation”

”Who is it?” she didn’t sleep yet, and maybe she was as lonely as me.

“The wimpy drinker who ever did discredit to man” I did tell her who I was directly.

“You’re annoying me, and I thought you forgot me.”

We kept conversing through messages until I fell asleep sometime. And we actually talked about nothing except that I got to know that she was named Xia Dandan, the second-year student of The College of Business Administration. Of course she had my name and knew that I was preparing for the Entrance Exam for Postgraduates.

The next day I slept all the morning and didn’t go to the library. So again I began my study while others taking nap. At noon not many people were there in the library, for everybody began to plan their time in light of the timetable of the exam when the exam was nearing. Though the girl behind me and for who I had a crush—Miss Li planned her time in the same way, she would time and again stay at the library for extra hours at noon. There, she didn’t go back at noon today. Sometimes I was wondering why at the university, especially like our university which was oriented at the humanities, girls were more hard-working than boys. And this girl before my eyes, so beautiful and enthusiastic about study and diligent, really moved me. Perhaps that was what indeed drew me to her.

The dark hair was just washed and was let loose, soft and smooth, running down the shoulders like a dark waterfall and a sweet breath of shampoo penetrating the air, and that was the faint smell of Head & Shoulders that seemed to enchant me. It was strange enough that every time she happened to sit behind me in the library though our seat might change everyday. So I had got countless chances to be alone with her studying, but every time I would feel a little nervous for no reason. At times my attention can’t help wandering away from the study. It had been quite a long time since she began to sit behind me, but I seldom talked with her face to face. Once she thanked me for picking up her pen which fell to the floor, and another time I thanked her for borrowing her papers, which actually was an invented excuse. Still another time she asked me to help her with a question and before I was ready to explain the question a Thank-you from her deprived me of any chance to say more. Even this longest conversation with her consisted only of three sentences. This beautiful, hard-working and cool girl kept me at quite a distance.

Human beings are a kind of strange animal because they are often more subject to the things that are difficult to come at. When I was more than half a meter away from the magnetic field behind me, we attracted each other as the opposite poles do. But once I walked within the half a meter distance of the magnetic filed, we changed into the same poles and a strong repulsion would come into existence. Why, if only Miss Li were Miss Xia so that we could drink to our heart content and tell vulgar jokes, and if only Miss Xia were Miss Li so that we could study and discuss the questions together. But Miss Xia was still Miss Xia who couldn’t study with me; and Miss Li was still Miss Li who was cold as usual and kept aloof from me.

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